Ozzfest '05 & more

I find I'm sitting alone in my dimly lite room, so I know it can only mean one thing. Time for a blog update.

Before I get on with the festival, I'll just do the general run down of the happenings. Things have still been going well with "sissypants". In fact, there's not much more that could make things better. Mind you I did not much more. The kids are still taking a liking to me. I had dinner down there tonight. Steak, potatoes, and green beans. After supper we hung out. Shot the shit and what not. Real food...droll. Sissypant, S, and myself went to Bonanza on Friday. We had a good time. We finished that trip off with a wal-mart and some hang out time. No new news on her uncle. I say that's all very crazy. She hasn't spoke much about him lately. I feel bad when I ask sometimes because it seems like it is something she'd like to avoid at times. The big footed baby boy is growing. I'd say her belly has grown noticeably over the last week. He's so awesome! She said he's been doing a number on her pelvic bone. She said it's a thing that makes her feel ill. All I can tell her it to be "patient". It's all worth it, which she agrees with very much. What does tomorrow hold? I do not know. I know this weekend (if all goes well) we will be getting together for dinner. Me and my folks and "J" and her kids. I'm thinking of suggesting her parents going too. It depends on my check.

My mom finally got the call about the baby shower. I know that probably settled a few voices in her head. My Aunt is going to go with her. I hope everyone gets along wonderfully. That would be great. A nice big family that doesn't mind one another, is it possible?

So Ozzfest'05. Pretty uneventful. I ended up going solo, which is an entire matter all to itself. However, things went fine. I met this dude down there. His name was Scott. He came and flopped down on the hillside beside me and said. "Hey man, you wanna smoke this joint?". Of course I did. So we proceeded to puff and pass. He said he saw me puffing on my pipe earlier and said what the hell. He had 4 buddies with him. Well one led to two and two to four and before you knew it I didn't know what was happening. He had them in a cigarette pack and apparently we smoked 14 joints. After they were gone I told him that I didn't plan on all this! He said, "That's just the first half". He gets out another cigarette pack with another 14 joints. At this point and time I told him I was done and got up and walked away. I have to say that was the event of the day for me. Got high most of the day for free.

As for the show itself, it wasn't bad. Pretty tame compared to other years. Sabbath put on a great show. They broke out a couple not so common songs like After forever and Dirty Women. Tony Iommi had one sweet ass solo. My highlight of the show was the song Black Sabbath. Something about that song live gives me goose pumps every time I hear it. I'd give Sabbath a 8 out of 10. I do that because I think they should have squeezed in another 2 songs. I have my Ozzy/Sabbath fix for the year and I await next years Ozzfest.

I bought a sweet ass bandana and a t-shirt. I got sissypants a new anklet which she seemed to like. T-shirt are outrageous at shows. I remember $15 t-shirts...

Well my day is almost over. I'm off to bed.

Later.

Time...

...or lack thereof! This working everyday shit is for the birds. Work has been going alright. If you get over the fact that the very sound of the 2nd shift lady's voice gives me an ulcer and the new guy feels the need to ask the same questions everyday appearing to remember less daily then all is fantastic. I decided to take some time tonight and update this "blog".

So all has been going well. A couple days went by and I didn't see my "sissypants" so I started to get a little down and my head start pulling some shit on me but I came around. I've seen sissypants the last couple of days. She even came up here yesterday. That is the first time she has been up in quite awhile. Once she got here I said "Welcome to hotel barebones". You see the house is, how should I say, the money pit with working plumbing. So we snuggled and stuff for a while. She got to meet the cat and dog. She's met the dog before but they got to snuggle. The cat, he was being goofy. He'd come up to her and get some love then go taking off meowing. He's a wimp. It went well. I told her it was about time she had met my kids!

Did you ever think that sometimes you may be doing more harm than good to yourself by doing certain things? I thought about this and realized if I feel like that, it's because I'm doing something that is not beneficial to myself or any given situation. That being said, it's good to remember to keep yourself in line.

Got a call from an old acquaintance about the house. I'll see what he is thinking. I know what I'm thinking. SELL!

Well that's good enough for now. Ozzfest is Saturday and I still don't know if I'm going solo. Oh speaking of that it was suggested to me that I get some code names for everyone. So take notes:

Sissypants = J
Son= D
Daughter = S

I will still refer to J as sissypants more often than not.

Later.

Follow up

So Friday we (sissypants, her son, and myself) went out for breakfast. Had a good time at Burger King. After that we headed to the mall. I'd say we got to the mall around 10ish. We were looking for the "bring the baby home" outfit. I can't remember the last time I shopped so long. We didn't get out of the mall till about 2pm. Before leaving we did have lunch at the arcade down there. Her son and I played some things. I tell you my arcade game skills have left me. We also ran into my friends wife. She was there to raise some hell about a hair cut. Oh what was the out fit we picked out like? Well we didn't pick one. All that shopping and couldn't agree on a thing. There were only 2 serious contenders but both had flaws. So what can ya do...

I went down to my friends house on Friday night. Hung out for a little while. Even tied one on for the first time in quite a while. Felt good. His wifes sister showed up with her new baby. He's 4 months old. I tell you, it's going to be a crazy ride but I'm not scared. So after catching up on the times and some video game action I stopped by sissypants house for a quick kiss and love.

Yesterday didn't bring much excitement. Didn't see anyone and talked less and I must confess today has brought more of the same. It's bringing me down.

On the up side, I did have a new call about the house just a little bit ago. We'll see how it turns out.

As for now I'm sad and my head aches.

Later.

Quickie

Well today was the first day of my 3 week stretch of work with no days off. Well that's not entirely true, I'm taking off next weekend for Ozzfest. Saturday for the show, Sunday to recover. They denied me vacation for the 23rd even after I asked a MONTH in advanced. I can see that with 4 of us doing a one person job how they need me there. So, I'll be calling in sick.

I'm pretty beat...I'll continue this after a nap. I gots more to say!

Here kittie kittie...

Later

Doctor office time

Today is ultrasound day. April was the last time I was at an ultra sound. That was right before things went crazy. Actually, that was the day things started to go crazy now that I think about it. This one will be a new experience because of that very fact. The day the craziness happened, it put me in a foul mood. Looking back, I should have chilled out. One of many things I would change if I could. I'm not saying I didn't have reasons to be upset, but I should have put that aside for the ultrasound. Lesson learned. Anyway, I am very excited while also being very thankful for where I now am. Though my head still plays a game on me now and again, I never loose sight of what is ahead. How could I? I can't wait to see the big footed baby boy on the monitor and to hear his heart beat. I'm guessing he's 5 pounds by now. I'll let you know how close I am! I know he's getting big, you can tell by looking at "sissypants". She says she can tell because of the ground he can cover when he's beating her ass. I can tell he'll appreciate a punching bag when that day comes. I also can't wait to see my sissypants. She's been anxious the last couple of days leading up to today. She's such a sweetheart. Ever since she's had this dream where she saw the boy, she's been very anxious for his arrival. She quoted me in a note regarding this. "Patience." In a few short hours I will be with my two greatest loves. Rewards for all my patience.

I have no idea what is going on with sissypants uncle. One day they say he's doing great and the next day he's having seizures if not worse. Apparently he's quarantined now. I guess he has a staff infection. Sisspants has been saying they haven't been taking good care of him. From all that I've heard I'd have to agree. They are always contradicting themselves. The nurses tell them (the fam) that he will never recover more than he has and the doctor keeps telling them that he will. I don't know who to believe. I think the whole thing is sad. There should be no confusion when it comes to this. The doctor was suppose to call them today and give them an update, but he never called. I suggested that they talk to the head of the hospital. Let he or she know what is going on and how unprofessional it is. There is no reason for any confusion on his condition. This has been going on for about 2 months now and I don't think they have been told anything concrete yet. They are always doing cat scans but never show any of the info to the family. I would demand to see that shit. Show me a picture from after the surgery and then show me a picture from today. Compare the two and show me where healing is or isn't taking place. I however, have no say in this matter. I just pass on my two cents.

So what do you when you have two moms that want to iron out the details about a baby shower, but are both being shy about calling one another? I told my mom to just call her mom. I don't see what the big deal is. Sure the situation isn't exactly normal, but it's certainly a lot better than it was a month ago. Hopefully someone gets some balls and picks up the phone or the kid will be here before the baby shower! One thing sissypants and I both want are family's that can get along. Hell even do things together. I'd like to give it my best shot at achieving this.

I have a poem to finish up!

Later.

Could it be...

...that his email I received saying I am being contacted about a possible 12 million dollar estate be true? I wouldn't think so either but here it is for all to see. Yea, scammers should get grammar skills before sending emails out.

I am Barrister Gumel Dede, a solicitor at law,personal attorney to Eng.P.B.Hedglin,a national Of your country,who used to be a contractor and importer here in Lome Togo. Herein after shall be referred to as my client. On the 26th of December 2003,my client,his wife and their only daughter were involved in a ghastly Plane Crash in a village called Adjarra near Porto Novou after take off from Cotonou in Benin Republic where they went for a Concert . All occupants of the plane unfortunately lost their lives. Since then I have made several enquiries to locate any of my client's extended family/relatives,To no avail.For more on the plane crash log on to
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/Africa/3348109.stm (http://www.cnn.com/2003/WORLD/Africa/12/26/benin.crash/index.html)
After these several unsuccessful attempts, I decided to track his last name over the Internet, to locate any member of his family hence I contacted you. I have contacted you to assist me in repatriating the fund valued at US$12 million left behind by my client before it gets confiscated or declared unserviceable by the Security Finance Firm where this huge amount was deposited. The said Security Finance Company has issued me a notice to provide the next of kin or have his account confiscated within the next twenty one official working days. Since I have been unsuccessful in locating the relatives for over one and half years now, I seek the consent to resent you too as the next of kin to the deceased since you have the same last names, so that the proceeds of this Account can be paid to you.
Therefore, on receipt of your positive response, we shall then discuss the sharing ratio and modalities for transfer.I have all necessary information and legal documents needed to back you up for claim. All I required from you is your honest cooperation to this projcet to enable us conclude it smoothly. I do guarantee you that this transaction dose not in any way attracts risk. It will be executed under a legitimate arrangement that will protect you from any breach of the law. upon the receipt of your response i will furnish you with detailed clarification as it relates to this mutual benefit transaction. Life has been going well in a whole.

Stuff like this makes the internet a bad place.

Now, onto life! Things have been going well. Sure I could bitch some about not being able to see my "sissypants" everyday but why should I complain? With how things are going, I'll take it. I went back and read some of my early blogs and I tell you, I was one hurting mofo. However, lets talk about today and not so much about yesterdays. The weekend wasn't too bad. Saturday was hang out day. Her son was spending the night with a friend so it was just sissypants and her daughter. We went to a park for a little while. I got a chance to interact some with her. Helped her out on the monkey bars. She seems to be a bit on the well, sissypants side! There were kids there a few years younger than her holding their own. However, she wanted me to help her the whole way across them. I learned that because sissypants told me it later on. I said to her, if she is always helped the whole way how will she know she can do it? After the park we went and got some ice cream. That went well. Who the hell doesn't like ice cream? After that we hit up the grocery store.

Once we got back it was suggested to watch a movie which surprised me. I was up for it! So we went up to sissypants room and chilled out to a movie. I got a bunch of snuggle time in. I felt the big footed baby boy have some serious movements. It was great and crazy all at the same time. During the movie her daughter was drawling most of the time. She's a little artist. Before I knew it, it was 1:30am and I headed on home.

Up coming event of the week: Doctors appointment Thursday and I will be there!

Starting with this week I will be working 3 straight weeks. It's going to suck, but I need the money. Speaking of money I haven't had any real hits on the house. More tire kickers. The old buyer is contacting a lawyer a friend of mine recommended. I don't expect much to come of it. Why? Well the last time I had high expectations about this they just went down the shitter so I'll take it day by day. I started doing stuff around the house again, just for sanity sake. My dad and I hung some dry wall on Saturday. I'm also getting testy because I have realized something. I'm the only one doing ANYTHING to try to sell this place. Man the ex pisses me off...

...and on that note she asked me to keep the dog. I'm still thinking about it. I'd love to keep her but I just don't know if I'll be able to. We'll see. Sissypants says I should keep her and that "we'll" figure something out. I love the words "we" and "us" now a days.

I feel a visit to my one friends house soon. I haven't seen them since the picnic. Since things have been rolling smoothly I haven't seen much of anyone lately. I just want to let everyone know that I appreciate everything they have done and will continue to do for me. That goes for all of my friends. All of whom I can count on one hand. Share the love!

Ozzfest is next weekend and I don't know if my friend will be able to go or not. I certainly hope so. His wife has some kind of issues with him going. Why? I have no idea.

I'll end with this: Connor Owen. Pretty catchy name for a big footed baby boy, eh?

Later.

Sleepy continued...

Now that I have a bit of a nap in me let me continue where I left off.

For starters I'm still a little down.

Sissypants wrote me a beautiful note. She talked about the night we were at the fireworks and how good she felt. She said many many sweet things that melted my heart. Knowing she feels like that really makes my day. She's also very happy with how things are going with her children and me. She is somewhat surprised, as am I. I thought the biggest problem with her son would be him letting me in, but that has happened without issue and we get along just peachy. Her daughter I was more concerned about. She was pretty upset with the "split" there. Her dad doesn't come around much, so she got pretty attached to her husband. As it is though, we get along great. She's a loner most of the time, but the night of the fireworks she wanted to ride with me when I dropped my truck off at work. My voice in my head said "YES!". I just keep on being myself and going from there.

I'm glad my friend suggested a blog. Just by writing this I'm feeling better.

I'm not sure what's going down this weekend. This is my last weekend for a while. We start working 7 days for 3 weeks coming up. It'll suck but I could use the extra cash flow. Hopefully tomorrow and Sunday hold some quality time. Tonights shot because she's watching a friend of her sons. That works out ok, I'm going to have dinner with a friend tonight. Looking forward to it actually. It's been a little while since we hung out. I've been putting most of my efforts into this situation with "sissypants". I hope no one blames me for doing so. I definitely don't' want to loose sight of my friends and family.

House news: Not a whole lot. I forwarded the name of a lawyer a friend gave me to the guy who was going to buy. Apparently this guy knows his zoning business and has dealt with the township here before so we'll see. The guy sounds interested to talk with him. I've had a bunch of tire kickers as my friend says but nothing serious. I really need to get out from under this place. I think I'm going to start doing stuff up here again. Just for the sake of doing something. I'm almost always fighting with myself to not do anything. I say I could do this or that but then another part of me says don't do anything you're only helping your ex get more without her lifting a finger. It's all quite mentally draining...

The name list is down to 2. I think I know which is going to take the cake. :-) I'll post it when we are positive.

As for now I have to get around.

Later.

Sleepy

I don't know if it's because I'm tired, but I'm feeling a bit down. I just left "sissypants" about 40min ago and I miss her something terrible. Things have been going so good. I just hate leaving. I guess if I didn't feel that way about it I would second guess my feelings about her. We hung out for a while this morning but it sounds like I won't be seeing her again today. We went out to breakfest. Went to Denny's. We haven't been there in quite a while. We use to go there every Friday morning. I had a great time this morning, just feeling down now.

I went down to visit last night before work. I could do that more. It was nice. We all hung out. Her daughter was off in her own world for most the time. Her son seems to be taking a liking to me. Which is cool. They both seem to be very accepting of me which is very cool. So we just sat around and shot the shit till I had to go to work.

I'm going to bed...my head is dropping! I'll continue this later.

Later.

Back on track

Oh not much going on today. I got to see "sissypants" before work. That always puts me in good spirits. I'm hoping to see her after work too. I just can't get enough! She had told me the first words out of her sons mouth today were "What time is it? JW is off of work now right?" I know I'm very surprised at how things are going with everything. I'm not complaining. I just thought things would be a little bit more difficult, but that hasn't been the case. I'm thankful. I was given advice about meeting her kids from a on-line friend. I was told to expect to not be liked. Now I am more than willing to listen to advice but sometimes I don't give it much of my time. This was the case with that advice. That's the last thing I needed to be thinking or expecting. What I was expecting to do was be myself and go from there. So far, that's been working out wonderfully. I know she is really happy that things are going good. I think it's time for everyone to have a life with someone who isn't an asshole. Myself included. I read sissypants a poem tonight I wrote about something her husband had said. Basically he said if I didn't treat them right to call him. That made me upset. For one, he wasn't the best person to her kids and for him to question me pissed me off. Secondly, he just needs to keep his mouth shut. So anyway, after reading it I got a great big hug and told that she wasn't worried about me. You know I don't think she has ever been. It's all been me. I'd like to say I'm surprising myself with how things are going, if that makes any sense.

I was so tired this morning I didn't call the paper. I"m pretty tired right now too. I'm going to do that this morning. I typed myself out a quick little ad. Hopefully I can get a real bite on this thing. I've had a few nibbles. The last thing I want is to still have this house over my head when the big footed baby boy comes. I want to be well on my way to getting into a new place with my loved ones. Time will tell. It's just a shame the township were such pricks to the guy that did want to buy. I made sure to leave that out of my ad!

My mom made some awesome pants for the big footed baby boy. I gave them to sissypants today and she dug them too. I wear these crazy shirts sometimes. Basically they are like bowling shirts but with skulls and stuff on them. Well, she had gotten me one at a yardsale and it was only a large. I haven't worn a large shirt probably since elementary school. So she went to the store and bought patterns and *poof* out of a too small shirt comes some awesome looking baby pants.

The dog and the cat were up to old tricks today. They interact very well. You have a 10lb cat going up against at 50lb dog. In the world of animals, there's not much cuter than that.

As for now, back to work.

Later.

Happy 4th of July

Well lets say fireworks didn't go down on the 3rd. However, they did go down on the 4th. I felt pretty down in the dumps about not going on the 3rd. I was really looking forward to it. In fact I got a little pissy about the whole thing. It passed quickly though, because it wasn't worth getting upset about. I went down to meet "sissypants" at 6pm. We all hung out down by the river for a couple hours. Her son and I played catch some, while her and her daughter sat by the water. After a little while her daughter and I were playing some "little girl" catch. I didn't mind. From there we dropped my truck off at my work and away we went. After doing that sissypants had been craving pizza so we tried to find an open pizza shop but no luck so we settled for Burger King. That worked out pretty good because we found a good spot to watch the fireworks from there. Sissypants and I laid on a blanket together while her kids sat on the top of her blazer. It went well. Everything has been going pretty well. After the fireworks we had about a half hour before I had to get to work so we just sat and chatted for a bit. Before I knew it, I was in here...

I must say I didn't really see a whole lot of problems meeting her kids, but I didn't expect it to be going quite so good. Don't get me wrong for the longest time I had fears, but once I got my head on straight I knew they were all silly. I'm also not complaining about how things are going. It's much better this way I'd say. Sissypants told me her kids are really digging me. I'm just being myself and it seems to be working just fine that way.

The big footed baby boy became pretty active before I had to go to work. It's great to feel him. He's got good rhythm. Sissypants says he's always punching and kicking in rhythm. He's going to be our little drummer. Each day he's getting closer and I find myself growing nervous. In a good way.

I'm calling the news paper this morning to run an ad about the house. Probably run it wed-sun. I'll just advertise it as a great investment property. First $70,000 or closest offer takes it. I would really like to have this squared away before the big footed baby boy is here.

How am I? Pretty good. Saturday I was a downy clowny so I slept a lot. Too much. Other than that episode things have been wonderful really. Bills are pretty well paid. The dog and cat are getting along again. I can't complain about how things are going with sissypants. I refuse to take any of this for granted. I figure if I make sure I do that, it will be impossible for me to be let down. I'm very thankful, and make sure that is known every day.

My friend is having a "party" on the 30th. Sissypants and I are going to try to make it. It depends on how she is doing by then. She seemed pretty interested in it when I mentioned it. I really dig the fact that I'm in love with some one who isn't afraid to meet people I know. It's different, and I love it. I'm pretty sure if we go it's just going to be her and I. She said her son would be with his dad that weekend and her daughter is too much of a sissypants herself to hang out by the creek and not flip out at every little creature she see's. We'll see what time brings. Speaking of time my friend is still having issues getting permission to go to Ozzfest. It's only 18 days away and if he doesn't go I'll be one of those weirdo's there alone. If that is what I must do, then so be it.

I feel a poem coming on so I'm going to get to it.

Later.

July update

It's almost the 4th and this is my firt blog of the month. I'll begin with Friday. It was a long day for me. I went shopping with my mom after work. We hit up a yardsale and then headed to the mall. She was listening to the oldies station. What was I listening to before getting in her car? Pantera's greatest hits disc. Quite the contrast. Anyway shopping went well. I know that ebay is the place for baby clothes. New prices are insane, espically for something they can only wear for a couple months. Didn't buy a whole lot down there. I got a new pair of shoes which were over due and bought us lunch. My mom picked up a couple baby things. After the mall we hit up Kmart and the dollar store. My mom is a dollar store junkie. I was going to pick up some snacks at the dollar store but was so stuffed from lunch nothing looked good. So after the dollar store we walked on up to Kmart. I wanted to stop there to grab a "travel system". Basically it's just a stroller and car seat that go together. They had one on sale that beat any of Wal-Marts prices if you can believe that.

After the shopping we swung by "sissypants" place to drop off some stuff. My mom got introduced to her mom for oh, about 10 seconds. We were parked in an alley, and a car decided they wanted to come through. So that didn't go as well as I would had liked but there will be other times I'm sure. I in return only got to see her for about that long, but I did manage to get a kiss and some hugs. We were going to try to do something later on in the evening but by the time I got home it was like 5pm, so I was pretty beat. Wasn't up for a whole bunch of anything. I did talk to sissypants some and we mapped out our plan for Saturday.

Saturday was movie day for us. Us being myself, sissypants, and her kiddies. Before that happened I got to meet sissypants dad. That went well, nothing much more than a hello and a hand shake. But hey, thats a good thing. So before going to the movies we went to the mall. Sissypants had to exchange something for these nice new SEXY tank tops she found. So her and her daughter went to do that and her son and I hit up the game store. We seem to get along pretty good. He reminds me a lot of myself when I was younger. Of course before leaving we hit up the toy store. We also had pizza for dinner. It wasn't bad. The whole thing went pretty good. No major spills! After the mall we hit up the dollar store for munchies and then off to the drive in. We got there a little too early so we went and got ice cream.

So the movies we saw were Mr. & Mrs. Smith (sucked) and War of the worlds (really sucked). I wasn't impressed by either on of the flicks. It went ok. Her kids were pretty calm. Of course there was some "kidding" going on but what can you expect? I know by the end of the movies it was cold! The night ended around 2am. I got some hugs and kisses and before I knew I was home.

Today may be fireworks day. That has yet to be determined. No matter what I hope to see my sissypants.

As for now, it's almost laundry time.

Later.