For my girls

You were both in my thoughts very recently and...


Lean on me

Times of trouble,
and worrisome thoughts,
will never be able to take you from my heart.
Every second of every day,
I carry you with me.
All that I see for you,
in the dreams of tomorrow,
bring to me calm,
my first daughter.
Every beat of my heart belongs to you,
yet shared with others.
Feel no need for greed,
you have your own key,
to unlock doors I have not seen.
Letting us into rooms just for you and I.
Daddy’s little girl,
you will forever be mine.
You may lean on me when you need,
and come to me for anything.
I will be easy to find,
I’m always by your side.
Though your words are silent,
I hear them clearly.
I love you to,
and we will be waiting.

...I love you.

Stressing...

It has been a rough week or so. I have found myself avoiding writing about it, but I feel I must. Last week was check up day. I was able to go for the first time in quite some time. You see I was unable to go during my 3 month Lowe's tour. I was quite happy to be there. Well the doctor's checking the heart beat of our baby girl and it seemed to be irregular. So he had some concerns and sent my "sissypants" over to the hospital to get monitored for a bit. Turns out the baby was alright, just a little hungry.

Since those events unfolded they wanted to see Julie again just to make sure all was well. Baby checked out fine. However, Julie's blood pressure was insane. I forget the exact number, maybe she'll post a comment with it. Anyway, they kept for for a couple hours and eventually sent her home even though there was no real change in her blood pressure. Later on in the day I want to say like 6pm the doctor calls and tells her to get the hospital. He also said that the midwife on duty should not have sent her home until the figured out what was going on. Remind me not to listen to this midwife, never again. So she goes back out and they get her under control and she went back out to get check again a couple days later. And again, it was a little high. Not near as bad as when she first went.

You can see I have lots on my mind. Not to mention that last night she woke up with terrible pains in her up stomach. She said she's doing fine now. If it happens again we'll be heading out to get check.

Everything could smooth out at any time now.

Later.

I love you Julie and my baby girl very much.

House hunting

Sometimes you'd be surprised at what you find when your doing something totally different. While just the other day I found a greedy little troll while I was looking at a house. Okay, it wasn't a greedy little troll. It was a real estate agent that apparently housed the greedy little troll in his back pocket or somewhere near the area. Up until then, I thought the guy was pretty cool. Now, I am skeptical.

You see, my wife and I were looking at this house. Which was listed on a website. The price was around $92,000. A lot of money, especially for a house that needed as much work as it did. So about a week goes by and the house appears on the website again for around $76,000. A lot of money, but the price was now in our "offer" area. We were prepared to offer. When I brought this up to the real estate agent, he insisted the price of the house was $92,000. I brought up the fact that I saw this listing on the website. However, all he said was "I don't even know what that web site is."

Call me odd, but why don't you just tell me you're trying to screw me over for an extra $20,000? Did I mention this house was in his wife's name? Imagine that! He's been a class act up until now. A friend of mine has a nice policy that I'm considering picking up, "One strike and your out".

My "sissypants" was feeling a bit stressed or something today about finding a house. All I told her was that some people spend a very long time trying to find the right house. If this is in fact, going to be the last move we make I will take as long as it takes to find "home". There's a huge difference between a house and a home.

I have been content recently with work. They gave me a fifty cent raise instead of the usual twenty five. That's about an extra grand a year. I'll take it.

Been trying to watch what I eat and do some exercising. It is a struggle with so many goodies in the house. I have given up soda ( I will have one if we go out to eat). I also picked up some fish oil taking me up to fish oil, low dose aspirin, and a multivitamin daily. I'd love to get a weight bench but we have no where to stick it. I'd hit that shit up every morning.

Best wishes to K and her family.

I am ready for a new Ozzy Osbourne album. This 5+ years in between new material is bullshit! I hear something is coming out later this year. Bring it on!

We are down to about 9 weeks before our baby girl joins us. I'm starting to get anxious/nervous. Daddy's waiting baby...

Now if you'll excuse me, I'll be going now.

Later.

I love you Julie.

Gone!

So it's working on Jan. 12, 2007. I'm happy to report that the house as finally sold. It sold last Friday. Talk about a fucking relief. I can't put it any simpler than that. Towards the end I found myself getting a little doubtful. Thinking of how I would miss this or that. However in the end, it was time to close the book on it. My McElhattan chapter is now closed. RIP 1999-2007.

Got almost everything squared away w/ the ex. Last thing is the Lowe's account which I'm hopeful to pay off asap. I have a settlement in place but have not received the letter yet from the debt collector. If it's not here today I'm calling them again. It's been about a week. I would love to close that chapter as well.

Spoke with a real estate agent this week. I'm not in the best position to buy a house right now, but I am not in the worse either. I can shop. We looked at a house earlier this week and are looking at one in the morning. I am looking forward to seeing this house, it's right up my alley. Kind of out of the way but not really. Like 5-10 minutes to town. Has a acre of land. It all depends on what the inside holds. Stay tuned.

Our baby girl is growing more and more everyday. I now get to enjoy feeling her beating up her mommy. Apparently she like to stretch, because that's what "sissypants" says it feels like she's doing in there. I can only imagine... Our baby boy? He's insane just like us. I look at him and see a bunch of both of us in him. He's doing very well and I hope he continues to do so.

Speak of our growing family, we do have a new addition. We got a puppy. Her name is Ebony. She's a chocolate lab and something else mixed. She sure does look like a chocolate lab. This was my doing. I planted the idea seed. I was saying how Kida (our Samoyed) would be much "happier" with a puppy. A week later, we had Ebony. They get along great, and indeed, Kida is a happy pooch. The cats? They've come around already.

Just bought a snack pack from the vending machine. Contains one hard boiled egg, 8 slices of ring bologna, 4 cubes of cheese, and 2 packs of crackers. All for $1.75, not bad.

20,000 more troops you say? I wonder, say 5 years from now how they military will get more recruits. "Sign up to fight wars of greed and ignorance? Where do I sign!" I don't see how they meet any kind of quota unless they reinstate the draft. If that happens, I will worry about my son & daughter's future...

Still in need of a minivan. $9000 for a 8 year old van? That's right, should I show you where to kneel?

Later.

I love you Julie

Test

Fucking bullshit fucking with my fucking template...

Nav bar complex?

I hate the nav bar that is automatically posted on my blog. Hey, it's my blog. Did I ask for a nav bar? No. Sure it's a free service, but isn't my blog ending in .blogspot enough for you? Do you feel the need to pollute my eyes with something so uncool I even think it is? Obviously you do. I finally upgraded to the "new" blogspot. Same stuff with a couple extra frills thrown in courtesy of google. MUCH better spell check function. Anway, if you too feel the nav bar looking down from above do the following to remove it. You and your blog will be better off for it.

Post holiday post

Merry Christmas! Happy New Year! A little late, but meant the same.

Did Santa Clause visit you? I hope you got everything you wanted. I'm sure everyone at our house was thrilled with their gifts. As for "sissypants" and I, we'll have our Christmas in a couple more days. If all goes well...That in no way takes away from the gifts we got from others in the family. It's just that, we want to get one another something.

Did you get shit faced on New Year's? If you did, I hope you were safe! As for me, I had one beer. One. Shot some bitches with G and watched the ball drop with the clan. Other than that it was a pretty quiet new years around our house.

I guess I don't much feel like writing much about the holiday happenings. They are what they were. Probably much like yours. I could write some about the house selling. Everything looks like it's on track for closing this Friday. Yes, this Friday. The ex has signed the deed and mailed it back. I have to call the lawyer handling the sale to see if they got it yet. If they did, there are no more hurdles other than my signature. Only one more thing to happen then I'll sign. I'll bite my tongue here and save the rest for after Friday. Unless, something bad happens...

Started to mini van shop. Not much out there right now in our price range that is safe. A few caravans but those things are no very safe. In fact, it almost gets all poor crash test ratings across the board. F that in the A. I want my troopers to be safe.

Speaking of troops, I just read that we've lost 3000 troops now in Iraq.

I now only work one job. Jumping the gun a little, but I'm pretty sure all will be well. It will be nice to see everyone more after 3 months of hardly seeing anyone.

I'm just not feeling blogish tonight.

Later.

I love you Julie.